silver screen selves

i am joined by ally and amelie,
silver screen versions of me;
looking for a higher meaning
at the cost of mental well being;
playing games of hide and seek
always ending in deceit;
prayed to love and lost belief,
then turned inward for relief;
chatting with a dancing child
who had no chance of getting wild;
clutching a glass, unreadable face,
hiding in crowds the tears' trace;
yet my silver screen selves smile
making it all seem worthwhile:
looking for a higher meaning
at the cost of mental well being.
i am joined by ally and amelie,
silver screen versions of me.